Caitlin

16 March 2009 @ 08:40 pm

Yeah, 10 weeks, no post...oops.

I literally feel like i haven't had a minute to breathe for the last few weeks, my life's been so crazy...but I also feel like nothing important has happened? idk...

Let's see...January?
Got Employee of the Month for December!
Then didn't get scheduled for 3 weeks straight.
But I did get called in pretty often, so I ended up making a bit of money.

February....work work school work sleep work.
Finally started getting scheduled a bit!
Learned how to ring!! Its officially my favorite part of work!
Vacation I worked like crazy.
Got a prom dress! Its gorgeous....different than what I thought I would get, but its sooo pretty!
Did a few other things but I can't remember?

March...is more than half over!
Birthday was the 4th. My parents did not get me anything, not even a card. My mom bought me a digital picture frame the day of my birthday because she was already at the store. Its still a sore subject, so I'm not gonna get into it.
Went to dinner with my family that night, then out on saturday. Pretty good times.
Finished the religion project from hell. I wouldn't have minded it so much if the directions were clear. I just legit had no idea what I was doing. BUT ITS DONE! thank god!
I'm actually getting scheduled at work, which is good, but I'm a little sleepy because I never have time to sleep anymore....the money's worth it though.

Let's see...what else....
School sucks. I'm just so fed up with everything/everyone and I'm taking it out on everyone. But I honestly don't care anymore. Senioritis much?
Love life is a negative...I cannot seem to choose the right guy to like...ever. Who knowss what will happen?
Family's good. They're growing up though!
Working out at the gym is finally starting to pay off. Not extremely yet, but some results can be seen!

COLLEGE TIME!
I'm still waiting to hear from Georgetown and Salve Regina...two of my top of course.
Here's the rundown so far:
St. Mikes- Accepted- $25,000 out of 40
Salem State- Accepted, I think into honors program? not sure though
Merrimack- Accepted-$15,000 out of 40 i think
American- Accepted- $19,000 out of 50
Stonehill-Accepted, haven't heard about money yet though
St. Anselm- Accepted- $15,000 out of 40
Babson- Accepted- $24,700 out of 50

I've decided that I'm going to be financially fucked no matter where I go, so I'm choosing what I like.

Its between Babson, St. A's, Salve, and Georgetown I think. I have to wait and see, which is the annoying part ahhhhh

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02 January 2009 @ 10:35 pm

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You should never have a regret. Look at it this way instead;; if it was good, it's wonderful. if it was bad, it was an experience. Worrying is a waste of time. It doesn't change anything, it just messes with your mind and steals your happiness.

Holyyy crap this vacation has been insane...in more that two weeks, i've had three days off, one of which was christmas. other good stuff happened to. Let's recap....

FRIDAY (my calendar is too far away for me to read the numbers so i'm gonna say the 19th? maybee):
Breakfast with Gabby at Hammersmith. We're poor and had to pay in ones =]
Work 3-9:30, major snowstorm i believe, lots of people called out which meant more work for me to do

SATURDAY:
Work....8 hours idk the time...I think I got off right before 5. Drove to Nahant and almost spun out 3 times because the roads weren't plowed well. I was in my moms car too so I don't even want to know what it wouldve been like in mine. I was supposed to be there for the christmas parade, but we didnt want to go out in the freezing cold and watch so we stayed in. Jeff (Gabbys boyfriend) was there too and Gabbys brother and we all just hung out in the kitchen. Good times =]

SUNDAY:
Work was supposed to be something like 930-245 but there was another storm and people called out which meant they needed someone to fill in so I stayed until 630...9 hours of time and a half = MONEY!

MONDAY:
Work 8-12, nap after then I can't remember

TUESDAY:
Work 8-4 then nap again then I'm not sure

WEDNESDAY (christmas eve):
Work was supposed to be 10-6, but they called that morning and asked me to come in early so I got in a 915
Went straight to NH to my aunts. Presents and food. I love my family, they're amazing and hilarious
Got home around 1130, then I wrapped all of my presents because I was going to do it before work but then I got called in. I suck at wrapping just so you know

THURSDAY (christmas):
No work!
Woke up at 9 for presents with Mike and my parents. I got an ipod (red! my favorite color) and a gps and a bunch of random things.
Lunch at my familys house in Salem. They crack me up. My cousins got unlimited texting so we were putting all of our numbers in each others phones and texting. You had to be there but it was funny.
Then straight to Chelmsford for Christmas with my moms side. They crack me up too. The babies are so adorable! Its crazy how old theyre getting! I got a coach purse from my aunt (who is also my godmother) and a few other things

Friday:
I was supposed to have from Christmas to New Years eve off, but that didn't happen. Around 11 my manager called and asked me to come in but I said I could only stay til 5, so I worked 12-5. Met a cute new kid at work. That was an interesting day to say the least.

Saturday:
My manager asked me when she called Friday to work Saturday too, so i was going to work 1245 to 945, but then they asked me to stay late too, so I stayed until 11. 10 hours and 15 minutes. I was so fucking tired. 45 hours that week fyi. and made $341!

Sunday (apparently I got annoyed with the caps lock):
DAY OFF! (okay maybe I didnt get annoyed). Slept and layed around all day. It was amazing.
JV was supposed to have practice, but it got cancelled because no one could go i think? so i went back to sleep

Monday:
My manager (a different one this time) called and asked me to come in, but i was on my way out and I worked 20 extra hours the week before so I told him I couldnt.
Went shopping with Gabby. Got some cute stuff and we just walked around. Hadn't hung out with her in a while.

Tuesday:
Almost made it through the day until Dianna (my favorite manager, the one that always asks me to come in/stay) called at 5 and I went in 6-10

Wednesday (new years eve):
Was supposed to work 10-430 but people called out "because of the snow" so I stayed until 630 when we were all done. Went straight to Jeffs with Gabby and a bunch of people. We went sledding (it was freezing!) which was fun then went and picked up pizza and rolls from bertuccis (so good!) and hung at his house for the new year. Left at 1230 because i had work the next day

Thursday:
Time and a half! 1015-615. Finally did Gabbys peer eval. for dartmouth, hope it wasnt too late!

Friday (today!)
10-6. More tired today than yesterday for some reason. Went to lunch and shopping with my mom on my hour.

And that is my vacation.

I'm off from work until a week from tomorrow I think. Sleeping all day tomorrow, maybe going to the gym. Havent gone all vacation. Sunday JV has practice but I cant remember when.

That was a mammoth post and I'm tired. More tomorrow if im still alive.

oh yeah MELANIE: i got your text but i was on the escalator and they scare me so i couldnt text back and now my phone is in the other room. We don't have any homework..thank god! I was surprised when I realized, since usually we have ridiculous amounts =]

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09 December 2008 @ 05:37 pm

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We do not get unlimited chances to have the things we want. And this, I know. Nothing is worse than missing an opportunity that could have changed your life.

So I tried to post that last entry the day before thanksgiving, but my computer went psycho and didn't post it and was being annoying. So I was mad at LJ and didn't post for a while, and when I just went to post it was there so I posted it. =]

Anyways....

Thanksgiving was good. My family is absolutely hilarious..I love when we all get together. Things are never dull. We went to my Aunt Lori's with most of my mom's side. The little kids are adorable! Of course, we set off the smoke detectors but other than that it was pretty calm considering how many of us there were.

Semi was decent. My dress was wicked big. The music was pretty good. I was in a bad mood that whole day though so the dance wasn't as good as it could've been, but idc that much. After I went out to eat with Jeff and Gabby and then Gabby and I just went back to my house since there were issues with going to Chris's with everyone and we just got annoyed.

School is pretty slow and annoying. I don't have to take my criminal justice final! My grades were apparently high enough that I don't have to. Thank fucking god, I did not want to study for that.

Work is good. I'm getting more hours, finally. The store's a mess usually though, but its good because then I have something to do. I just hate when they put me in Men's or the fitting room all night...I usually run out of stuff to do and get really bored.

College stuff is winding down. I have 3 more apps to do I think. Tomorrow I have an interview for Georgetown with one of their alums. We're meeting at the coffee shop at Barnes and Noble. I'm so nervous. I really want to go there. Ahhh hopefully it goes well.

And I think that's all I wanted to say?

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09 December 2008 @ 05:36 pm

THIS WAS FROM THE WEDNESDAY BEFORE THANKSGIVING::

"You can't stay in your corner of the Forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes."
-Winnie The Pooh

Today was a half day at school but my mommy let me stay home! I got a cold earlier this week and it got really bad yesterday and we only had 1 real class, so she let me skip. I slept until 10:30...almost 12 hours =]

My car is fixed! It needed a few new parts and took a little longer than expected but I'm just glad it's done! I haven't driven it yet but hopefully everything works fine and there are no more problems...

So last night was the powderpuff game. I didn't go. I wasn't going to play anyways and didn't feel like getting sicker because I went and just stood there so I blew it off. Instead I went to the football potluck dinner with Gabby so she'd have someone to stop her from killing someone. After that we went and got food. She wanted spinach and artichoke dip from 99 and I wanted chicken noodle soup, but they don't have that there (I checked online before). So we had Mike look up the number and did the carside to go at 99 and then went to Panera and got my soup and ate there. We just chilled for a while since we didn't feel like leaving and going home. Good times =]

Today I stayed in bed till 11:30, took a shower, ate a little (i can't eat much when I'm sick). Then my mom let me borrow her car for the afternoon. Went to target and got a purse and nail polish for friday and some foundation since mine is pretty much gone. I love the bag I got. Its so cute! Then I dropped off the cakes my grandparents ordered from the fundraiser and talked to them for a while. Tried to go tanning but I guess my month ended yesterday, not today, so I just left. Went to the gym and worked out for a bit but my breathing's off so I didn't do too much cardio-wise. Talked to Matt for a while. Then I ran out of things to do so I went home and made some chocolate cookies my uncle has been begging me for.

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24 November 2008 @ 06:08 pm

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True strength is being able to hold it together when no one would blame you for falling apart.

My car is getting fixed tomorrow! And it works out well, since Gabby can just drive me home on her way to tanning and shes picking me up when we go out later anyways so I really don't need it tomorrow. I just can't go to the gym, but I went today and I'll go wednesday.

Tomorrow is powderpuff, but Gabby and I decided that we're just not going at all. The weather is going to be freezing and disgusting so we're boycotting. We're going to the football potluck dinner at 6ish then we're just gonna skip the game and go out to eat, since we barely get to see each other lately.

I need school to be over. We barely do anything. What we do is pretty much pointless. I hate it. My attention span is too short for this, and its only getting shorter.

Oh yeah, my mom almost gave me a heart attack today. I came home from the gym and I thought she was still tutoring, since she wasn't home. So I go inside and look for Logan, figuring he probably needs to pee since he's been home all day. But I couldn't find him. Sooo I start looking all over my house and calling my mom, but of course she doesn't answer. Finally she calls me back and tells me she has Logan, they went for a walk and then to my grandparent's house. So I was flipping out for nothing. Sickkkk

I pretty much have nothing to do tonight. Study CJ, read Dorian Gray and thats about it. Fun stuff right there. Might as well go start yayyyy

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21 November 2008 @ 05:31 pm

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There are two kinds of people in your life.
People that are there to pick you up and
people who are there to push you down.
In the end, you're going to thank them both

Sooo things have been busy and annoying..hence the extreme lack of posts.

School is pretty boring. It's actually almost a complete of time. We do stuff in maybe three classes and the rest is just do whatever you want, which is fun sometimes, but not everyday, 2, 3, 4 times a day...it justs gets annoying after a while.

I really like my criminal justice class. I don't always do so hot on the quizzes, but I like the stuff that we're learning and the teacher. It could definitely be a hell of a lot worse. English is English. My favorite book we've read so far is Clockwork Orange. We just started Picture of Dorian Gray. I think it'll be good, if not a little tough. Spanish, idk what's going on. I don't want to say anything and have it be completely wrong so I'll get back to that when I know more...few weeks maybe. Math is okay. I love Mrs. White, but since our teachers have sucked so far we have to go really slow because no one knows what they're doing, so I get annoyed when I know the stuff and just have to sit there, but its not too bad. I can't stand Religion. She's really nice and stuff but not a good teacher. The class is so disorganized and I honestly have no idea what I'm doing. Part of it is because the class is so big but I just don't like religion in general and get really annoyed when everything is based on the Catholic standards so then I get aggravated in class. I love Humanities. Jalbert=my favorite teacher. Plus I love history of all kinds, so its just a good combination.

Work isn't too bad. I either work in the fitting room, do go-backs or "recover" (fold all the stuff people unfold or leave in the wrong places). I kind of wish I had more hours, so I'd earn more, but I think it would be a little to overwhelming.

I have some of my college apps done. St. Mikes, St. A's and Babson are all sent out. I'm mailing Georgetown and Salem State Monday. I'm almost done with Salve. Those are the ones I def. want to apply to and I might also do Merrimack, Stonehill, and maybe some others? I'm not sure yet. I really wish I could go to Georgetown. I love DC. The school's gorgeous. It has an amazing program. But by their standards I'm average, maybe a little above at best. I have a decent shot of getting in, but I won't get anywhere near enough money to be able to afford it. I refuse to be hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt.

Babson offered me a chance to apply for a scholarship. Full tuition, semester abroad, internships, money for studies/research. If i manage to get that, it would be amazing. Its such a good school and since its all business their program is really strong. I'm going to look at it on the 8th, I really hope I like it.

I'm pretty much gonna go wherever I have to pay the least. I like all the schools I'm applying to. Some more than others, but I could see myself at most of them. We'll see what happens. I just wish it wasn't such a long wait. I'm so anxious about it, I'd rather know now.

My mom and I joined a gym a few weeks ago. I haven't seen much results but thats probably because I'm so unmotivated that I only go 2 or 3 times a week. The kid at the front desk is wicked nice. I went in today by myself since my mom had to go somewhere and I ended up just talking to him for over an hour and not working out at all. He has a girlfriend but it was good to just talk to someone completely removed from everything. I felt a lot better after. These past few weeks have been pretty rough for me, so someone making me laugh was really helpful.

And apparently I have a split muffler? I was complaining about how my car is ridiculously loud lately so he looked at it when I was leaving since he was off work, and its pretty bad. Which means I'm gonna need to get it fixed soon, so there goes 300 bucks and my car for a few days. But at least my muffler wont randomly fall off with me having no idea wtf is going on.

Christmas is almost here! I really need to get cracking on my shopping. I have a few things, but still a lot to get.

That was a really long post so I'm gonna go work on college stuff

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15 October 2008 @ 12:31 pm

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Life’s challenges are not supposed to paralyze you;
They’re supposed to help you discover who you are

Ahh wicked long time, no update!

Lots has happened, but nothing too big really....

Got a job at Old Navy! Its not amazing or anything, but its money and it gives me something to do.

School's not too bad. I absolutely cannot stand religion, but that's not too surprising.

College stuff is stressing me out so bad. I still don't even know for sure where I'm applying. I need to have some safety schools, since apparently I have $19,000 in my college account, not the $25-30,000 I thought I had.

I hate drama. There's been some that I now might be stuck in the middle of. I hate it. I've cut so many people out of my life because of the drama they've caused. And now it's found me again. This sucks. Hopefully everything will work out, but until then things could get pretty dicey.

It sucks because this weekend I realized thtat I basically only have one person that I can truly and totally trust. And that's because I've known her since I was 7. Everything else I'm not too sure of. And realizing that pretty much devastated me.

There's more I have to say, but I can't figure out how to say it.

I should probably go eat, since all I've had today is a glass of OJ....

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14 September 2008 @ 08:53 pm

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So I spent the weekend in Vermont for my cousin Kelly's wedding. It was amazing. She's so happy and I'm so happy for her.

I also visited St. Mike's and got a car! (from my cousin Shannon)

I'll update more later but I need to go do homework!!

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11 September 2008 @ 08:22 pm

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CHALLENGES ARE WHAT MAKE LIFE INTERESTING;

OVERCOMING THEM IS WHAT MAKES LIFE MEANINGFUL.

Right now, I am avoiding finishing my college application essay by posting. Yay procrastination.

I went to the Red Sox game last night. They lost after 14 innings. We left after the 13th. I didn't get home until after 12 and didnt go to sleep until after 1. So I'm really really tired. Not the best mindset for writing possibly the most important essay of my life. Good thing its only a rough draft.

I got a job yesterday! Old Navy in Saugus. Swear to God it was the fastest interview ever. Less than five minutes (I know because I checked my phone just before the woman came out to meet me and then again when I called my mom to find out where she was/tell her I got the job). She asked about 5 questions and then said "Well, we'd like to offer you a position". I think because they only do online applications, they have a way of picking out the best possible candidates and then bring them in for interviews to make sure they're not a psychopath or something. The only thing about the job is that I need to have an orientation, and I'm going away the next two weekends, so I don't know when I'm actually going to start. The woman wanted me to go tomorrow, but I'm leaving for Vermont for Kelly's wedding so I can't.

Andd I really should go work on my essay, so more later if I'm lucky!

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07 September 2008 @ 10:12 pm

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Long time...no update. Oops I'm already slacking.

Currently I am avoiding doing my criminal justice homework/reading Gilgamesh for Humanities. =]

First week of school was pretty good. Nothing major happened.

This weekend my cousin Kelly is getting married! The first on this side of the family...I'm so excited!

I'm also getting a car this weekend! My cousin Shannon (Kelly's sister) is giving me hers. I think Mike is driving it down from Vermont for me since he has to leave Saturday night and the rest of us are leaving Sunday.

I have a job interview at Old Navy on Wednesday. I'm wicked nervous but I hope I get it...I need a job!!

anddd now I really have to do my homework so bye!

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02 September 2008 @ 10:00 pm

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“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, "I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along." You must do the thing you think you cannot do.”

Blahhh day today. School has officially begun. My classes are all right, what I expected pretty much. Criminal Justice looks like it’ll be good. A lot of work, but still good. I just wish it was more than a standard class. For all that work, we should get more credit.

I kept feeling wicked anxious all day today. I don’t know why but all of a sudden I’d be panicking and I wouldn’t know why. Hopefully it’s just nerves. I’ll get over it, I think.

So my Nana is getting sick. Not physically so much as mentally. We’re pretty sure that she has dementia, but she refuses to go to the doctor. We’ve known she’s been sick for a while, but its fucking scary watching it. There’s really nothing anyone can do either. But apparently she was on this medicine that I can’t remember the name of and one of the side effects is that people who take that can go crazy. Something about their thought process being fucked up or something but honestly…WTF? WHY would doctors/the FDA/whoever OK a drug that makes people go crazy?? IDK, maybe I’m missing something.

And I swear I’m going to get kicked out of college for plagiarism. I always forget to cite my sources. But I honestly don’t know how if I read a bunch of different articles and then just put together my own interpretation of it. But I got a 5 ½ on one of my English papers from this summer because I didn’t cite anything. Whateverrrrr.

I feel like crap so I’m gonna stop typing now. Nighttt

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01 September 2008 @ 12:01 am

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Always be a first-rate version of yourself,
instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.

--Judy Garland

So I’m incredibly bored and since there is nothing interesting to do, I’ll update again, while also updating my Facebook profile. Woohoo for multi-tasking, especially this late.

Ready for some random rambles? Whoaa that’s a tongue twister!

Anyways, I thought you’d all like to know that I’ve gotten over 25 mosquito bites in the past three weeks. Yes, 25+. All in about 4 hours of outdoor “activity”. There definitely isn’t West Nile in this town…I would’ve gotten it by now. I hate itching. And I can’t take Benadryl because I fall asleep within an hour of taking it. You’d think I’d have developed an immunity with all the times I had to take it because of my red-dye allergy as a kid…but nope still works as good (well?) as it did when I was three. Go drugs!

I’m watching the Soup right now. Well, it’s a commercial but same difference. Is Dancing with the Stars really in its 7^th season? That’s pathetic. There’s so many pointless shows on TV nowadays…and yet I’m addicted to half of them. Although Dancing with the Stars isn’t one of them. For some reason I don’t get ABC, CBS (I think) or NBC in my room so I don’t watch any of those shows which is why I have all of last season’s ER on my DVR. That and I haven’t watched them all. Damnit I just got another bug bite! WTF I’M INSIDE!! Ahh it’s two! FML.

So much for this new journal reflecting my “Positive Outlook”. Oh well.

I hate that facebook doesn’t have spellcheck so when I capitalize the first two letters instead of just the one I actually have to fix it myself. I’m so fucking lazy.

I’m so sick of hearing about the presidential election. I don’t like either of them. Good thing I can’t vote. My dad keeps telling me Obama’s connected to some terrorist (William Ayers of the Weatherman Underground –LOOK IT UP he keeps yelling everytime I’m on a computer—which is WAY too much.)

I’m talking on facebook to my friend Ashleigh, who I’ve been friends with since I was 6. That’s 11 years for all you anti-math folks. Her and my friend Jenna are the only two from elementary school I’m still close with. And I’ve only seen Ashleigh once in the past 1 and ½ years. I hate that. I want to see people more. I’m such a fucking introvert. I hate going out…it all goes back to that damn insecurity. I should work on that. Unfortunately its pretty low on my list. Damnit.

My cousin Sarah is coming over tomorrow to look for clothes to wear to Kelly’s wedding. Well actually, she’s coming over for dinner with the rest of her family for Labor Day, but she also needs clothes. I really should find her more clothes other than the 5 things I’ve dug out. But I’m not going to. At least not now because that requires moving and I’ve done enough of that for now. I wish typing was more of an exercise. I’d really be in shape then. I’m a gooooood typer.

Holy shit how tired am I?

All right well my ramblings are now…what’s worse than rambling? I don’t know…whatever that is these are.

I started this post just after 11…its now midnight…yay for distractions!

So, for any of you really bored people that actually read this entire peace of bullshit…congratulations! You get a cookie! JUST KIDDING!

Actually…maybe not, because as Melanie so kindly nicknamed me a few years ago, I am the COOKIE GORILLA!

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31 August 2008 @ 08:59 pm

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There are as many ways to meet someone’s as there are someone’s to meet. That said, it’s almost impossible to meet that special someone unless you're willing to be someone else's someone until your special someone comes along.
-Kermit the Frog

Didn’t do much today. Went to the mall with my mom, where I actually spent less than her for once. Just got two tank tops to wear under my uniform shirts and a sports bra because it was green and $10. Then I went to Revere Beach with the fam and the dog to get something to eat, basically so the dog could get out. Did some summer reading and that’s about it. Sick last days of summer right?

I applied for a job at Old Navy today. I applied at a couple others over the summer, but never really heard anything back. My parents keep telling me that I don’t need to get a job..but I’m bored out of my mind without something to do after school/on the weekends. Hopefully I get it, but if not ohhh well.

Tomorrow’s Labor Day and some of my family is coming over for burgers and stuff around 5ish I think. My cousins are bringing their dog Henry so Logan can have a buddy. =]

I was going to say something else, but as usual I forgot so byeee.

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30 August 2008 @ 09:28 pm

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Obstacles are put in our way to see if what we want is really worth fighting for.

So I’m looking at the Common Application right now. Shit it’s scary. There’s so much to think about, and I still haven’t decided exactly where I want to apply. Some of my applications are due in two months and I still have tons to figure out. Ahhhh. I wish it was October of next year so everything would be settled. But it’s not. And I just figured out that Salem State doesn’t take the Common App? So I have to figure out how to apply there, since that’s my safety.

Right now I think I’m applying to Merrimack, St. Anselm, Salve Regina, and St. Michael’s (I got the book award from there and they sent me a thing saying I could qualify for a $25,000 scholarship so I figured I should apply) and Salem State, like I said for my safety. That’s enough and I’m pretty sure I can get into at least a few of those, but I don’t know if I want to apply somewhere else. I don’t know if I want to apply to a “reach” school, because honestly none of the ones I’ve picked are exactly reaches for me. I should talk to a guidance counselor or something about it, but they’ll probably get mad at me for “settling”. I don’t think I am…I’ve picked schools I’m comfortable with, that I can most likely get into, and where I stand a good chance of getting a decent amount of financial aid.

By the way, college is wayyyy too expensive. My brother’s friend Missy has to take a year off and work because her financial aid fell through. And she’s not the only person that’s had to do that. It’s ridiculous. People work hard through school and get into a good college and they can’t go because of MONEY? Well a bunch of lazy-ass rich kids just have their daddies call the school of their choice and walk in, put in even less effort than they did in high school and graduate with honors? What the fuck, this country is so fucked up.

All right, so there’s my rant. I’m too tired to think of anything else to write now. I’m gonna go watch Friends to cheer me up. It usually works =]

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29 August 2008 @ 05:32 pm

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“Happiness will never come to those who don't appreciate what they already have.”

No school today. =]

So we took Logan to the doggy day care today for his evaluation to see if we can board him there when we go to Vermont for Kelly’s wedding on the 12^th or something like that. He loved it and he passed, so that’s good.

We (my parents, Mike and I) were supposed to go to lunch at the Cheesecake Factory while Logan was at day care, but my dad couldn’t leave Salem because there weren’t enough people in the office..idk. So we went to this place called Duby’s which was no Cheesecake Factory, but it was decent. Then I ran some errands with my mom..Bed Bath and Beyond to get her some tea and a present for Kelly’s wedding, Petco for kitty litter and more toys for Logan, Home Depot to return some spindles?, Barnes and Noble to get Sparknotes for Othello, and Staples to get notebooks, pens, etc for school. Now I’m just waiting for everyone to get here for Friday Night Pizza.

All in all, a pretty exciting day right? Haha not really but whatever.

I have to get my applications started soon. I can’t believe its time for all this all ready. I still don’t even know all the places I want to apply to. I really should get on that. But I probably won’t. If anyone has suggestions for schools let me know. =]

And people have started to show up, so peace out cub scouts.

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28 August 2008 @ 07:19 pm

Back Again

Now that I am freshly showered and full of food, I can continue my last post. Unfortunately, I don't remember what I was going to write. So here comes some rambling...

Today was the first day of school. I don’t think I’ve fully grasped the fact that this is it. My last year. Everything changes after this. Ahhhh. Don’t get me wrong, I’m excited. But I’m also nervous, anxious, sad, waiting for it to end but wishing it could just last for just a little longer…

I think this will be a good year. I’m going to try to make it one at least. I have good classes, all with Mel, and a bunch with my other friends, and finally a good set of teachers. The only one I don’t know about is Criminal Justice because we’ve only met him once and didn’t have him today, but I think it’ll be good.

I can’t believe how much has changed in the last three years. I’m no longer friends with a lot of people I was so close to for so long. But honestly, I’m not too brokenhearted about that and looking back, I’m not surprised. Actually, I’m kind of glad. My friends now mean so much to me, I don’t think they know. They keep me sane, which is tough to do. I trust them a lot, something that is often hard for me to do. I know I don’t open up as much as I should, which probably hinders some of my relationships, but I’m going to make an effort to put the real me out there. I’m so afraid of being judged/ridiculed/whatever by people I don’t know that I hold myself back. But it’s my last year, and after this I don’t ever have to see these people again, so screw it. I’m sick of being insecure and so self-conscious it’s all I can do not to run home and hide myself away. I’m going to try to be better about it…but no guarantees. I hate not keeping promises.

And there was a lot more I was going to say…but I’m blanking. So, maybe another again later, if not, hopefully tomorrow.

But I did decide that I want to try to end every post with a quote of some sorts. Obviously it will not be an entirely effective plan, given that I forgot on my last one, so we’re shooting for the majority of posts. Here’s today’s, one of my all time favorites:

“You've got three choices in your life.
Give up, give in, or give it your all.”

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28 August 2008 @ 05:49 pm

first post!

So I got a new livejournal. I really want to try to post somewhat regularly, but my old journal just reminded me of old memories and bad times. I just started my senior (ahhhh!) year and I needed a fresh place to keep track of my thoughts. Trust me, it can get pretty crazy in my head, so it might here...sorry in advance to whoever (if anyone) is reading this.

Anyways...about my "username". It's pretty random, which shouldn't be too surprising. I was trying to figure out what I wanted my name to be...something original, but with a happier tone, since that's what I'm aiming for this year. I have hundreds of quotes saved on Word that I look at from time to time, so I decided to look through that to get an idea for a name. Near the end of one of the quotes documents I have (there's one from each computer I use, so there's a couple I've moved onto my computer and have yet to merge or whatever) and randomly there was a quote that simply said "Dazzle Me!". I don't know why, but it seemed perfect for my new lj. So that's why the name. Amazing story huh?

And I have to go eat dinner...yum! more later if I remember...

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